How Far We Fall

How far we fall when we don't set our eyes to a stronger place than our mind's desire. 

How far we fall when we let the world consume our souls. 

How far we fall when we let depression seep into our corners of our heart and mind. 

How far we fall when we forget whom we belong to. 

How far have I come..?

It seems in the course of a year and a half, my life has brought me epic highs and astounding lows. 

From screaming out my Lord's name on the top of a mountain I had just climbed in Lima, Peru to screaming it out in vain and frustrating in the depths of my room. 

How weak am I that I don't want to take the step forward to pray more, to grow closer to God. How humanistic. 

To slide so far away. 

I am no Daniel, nor David, Ruth, Esther, or Mary. I am me, and I am far weaker than I tell others. 

I am not perfect and I have failed. 

I've gone, for just over a year now, feeling nothing. Emptiness, utter hollowness. 

The dark abyss of my soul overwhelms. 

For there is now nowhere to turn but to Him. 

And there is nowhere else to look, but Up. 

I'm out of excuses. Out of time perhaps. This can't just wait until next month when I feel like smiling, it can't wait until I feel like being social, it can't wait until I'm perfect. It starts now. 

I am a failure, I am human, and I am HIS. 

2 Corinthians 12:9 And He has said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness " Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me.

I Will Wait

I will wait here,
Mending the dreams I have broken.
I will wait here,
Stringing the words left unspoken.
I will wait here,
Following your every move.
I will wait here,
Until I hear the truth from you.

I will wait here,
Recalculating these days.
I will wait here,
Rewording every last phrase.
I will wait here,
Because I told you forever.
I will wait here,
I promised you my forever. 

I Will Wait. Copyright 2009 by Meagan Ritz. All rights reserved.

You've Kept Me Awake

It’s been all night that you’ve kept me awake. I’ve been writing to meet this deadline. I am swallowed alive in this heartache. I won’t follow and live this lie. 
I don’t want to lose out on you, But I won’t be used for another escapade. I’m locked inside a dysphoric truth, And you’re keeping me awake.
I’m trying to look forward and focus now, But traveling further is hurting me more. You can’t complete me, I know it somehow, To sacrifice dreams left ashore. 



Is this the end? Through thick and thin just doesn’t mean the same. Is this the end? Till death do us part gets lost in facades.
Love eternally is what I need. Love eternally is what I cry for. The end is coming, I can feel it in the air. The end is coming, I can hear it screaming with the wind.
Come and reveal yourself to me Lord. Scrape away the scars of the world. Come and wrap your grace around me. Show me the truth in love, eternally. 

Copyright 2009 by Meagan Ritz

Against the Grain

Against The Grain - City and Colour

You need not to climb mountaintops,
You need not to cross the sea,
You need not to find a cure for everything that makes you weak.
You need not to reach for the stars when life becomes so dark,
And when the wind does blow against the grain,
You must follow your heart,
You must follow your heart.

When all your friends have come and gone,
And the sun no longer shines,
And the happiness for which you long is washed away like an ocean's tide,
When all the hard times outweigh the good,
And all your words are misunderstood,
When the day seems lost from the stars
You must follow your heart,
You must follow your heart.

If you feel you've paid the price,
And your wounds should cease to heal
And everything you love in life spins like a winding wheel.
If you should wake to find you're abandoned,
And the road you've traveled leads to a dead-end
When death creeps in to play it's part,
You must follow your heart,
You must follow your heart.